Day of Kaiyo’s rescue

Day of Kaiyo’s rescue
I can not believe you kept this from me, Jordan. This could be your whole problem with your memory and you say nothing to me. Frowns at her. "Look Lily, I am not happy about this. I am a monster. You would never of let me out the jail if you knew!" I sighed and looked at her. Jordan, no one thinks you are a monster. You did what you had to do to survive. You are not a monster, Jordan. Lettie will help you and you will get your memories back. "What if I don't?" You will so stop saying that. You think to much. Seriously, you are safe. You are better. You are not being forced to do anything but just wait. You can go outside and smell the fresh air with a whole pizza if you want. I am here to help you. I am here to listen. But you can not keep me out the of the loop! I will not have it. I spend more time with you than I have with anyone since coming here. I am truly upset that you kept this from me. +Jordan McCormick I want to know everything and I mean everything. So spill it all now.
Damn Lily was beyond pissed with me. It was nice to see her not so poised and perfect, except that she was angry with me. I tried to tell her I am a monster, but she would not hear any of it. If only she knew everyone that I had killed then her mind would be changed for good. Hell if this whole pack discovered the things I had done they would put me out of my misery. I sat in the corner of the couch with my legs curled up to my chest. My head rested on top of my keens while I hugged myself tightly. Honestly, I did not know if it would be in +Lily Donovan's best interest to know everything. If the others found out I was here, the less she knew the better. I tried to keep my eyes averted from the female but I could feel them boring into my head as she spoke. With a heavy sigh I whispered into my knees The things I did are horrible. I do not want to relive them. The drugs they would shoot into me before each fight made me feel invincible, strong and angry. All I could think about was winning and to do that I had...had whispering softer kill my opponent. If I did not then I would die or my body... shivers as a pain filled memory of the horrible place enters my thoughts be punished. I think it was worse then dying, but I could not disappoint the crowd, ya know. Of course she did not know. What a stupid thing for me to say. Gezzz I could probably win an award for dumb comments I'm sorry I angered you. I'm just feel so fucked up some days. I really don't think there is a cure for someone as damaged as me
ReplyDeleteFor the first time I rolled my eyes at her. It was not professional but she was my friend and to keep something like this from me hurt and made me mad. Still, Jordan. You kept this from me. You only feel like this cause of those nightmares you are having. I want to know everything that you are having. “No!” I rose a brow at her Fine, then don’t get better and never return home and live scared and in fear for the rest of your life. She growled “I’m not scared! I just don’t know what is real sometimes! There happy?!” She looked shocked like she was not supposed to tell me. I frowned and stared at her. What else Jordan? Tell me everything. It won’t hurt. No one is around. I need and want to know this not only as your therapist but as your friend for so long.
ReplyDeleteI could not tell her how scared I was. Already the female was getting to know some of my weaknesses. In a way I understood why she kept saying we were friends. She was so damn stubborn and did not show any fear towards me. Hell in my book that would be someone I could hang with. With a heavy sigh, I looked up and over at her I get so confused about shit and just when I think something is real it turns out to be a nightmare. I can't let myself sleep any more. When I do there are these voices that want me to do things. Even to you, to everyone. My head hurts constantly and my stomach always feels sick. I want to be strong again. I liked when they gave me the shots. I felt better, nothing could stop me. Now I am weak and sitting here doing nothing but hiding inside away from everything. Lily tilted her head as she reached out and patted my hand gently before drawing back and gathering up a couple of cookies. She offered me one, which I snatched from her grasp causing her to gasp softly in surprise. First I smelled it and then took a little nibble. Lily reminded me that the food was good and I did not have to worry about being poisoned. Shrugging as I took another small bite Yeah, old habit. Never knew what I was eating in that place. Ok, I agree not to hide anything, but I can't promise I will like everything you say or want me to do. Now she laughed softly and I could not help but smile as I finished eating my favorite flavor of cookie
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