After the bar


After the bar

Pulling into my driveway, I shut off my truck sitting there for a few good minutes thinking what the hell just happened. Why was she so mad at me? She was rude to me at the store, called me a baboon. Now she was what... jealous? The one day I wanted to just let loose and relax to get her off my mind. She was on my mind more now. All I see is her crying hurting eyes. Fuck! This was not good. Not good at all. Getting out of my truck, I headed into the house and paced back and forth. If she is mine there was no way in hell she was going to come two feet near me now. Walking into the kitchen, I grabbed a beer out the fridge twisting off the cap taking a long pull. Leaning against the counter, I turned my head to look at the urn in the living room on the shelf. She was my life. I loved her so much it hurt. I still love her and always will. I promised her she would be the only female in my life. Now, here another mate comes along and fighting it is harder than I thought it would be. Sighing, I walked over to the urn rubbing my thumb over her name. Closing my eyes, I took a few deep breaths and thought about what Vincent said. Maybe I was getting a second chance at it again, but fuck after what happened tonight i'm sure it would never happen now. Checking the time it was late and I was getting tired. Monday I started as a guard for some college kid. Walking into the bedroom and then my bathroom. I stripped out of my clothes and started the shower. I smelled like the chick from the bar and I really needed to get that smell off me. Stepping into the hot water. I closed my eyes and let everything drain from me. I would figure this out, I had to. I would not let this keep going like it was. If I ever saw her again it would be much different. Opening my eyes, I washed up and got out. Drying off I got into bed and let sleep take me.

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  1. Kaiyo NakatomiApril 19, 2018 at 5:15 PM

    * I had so many questions I wanted to ask Kimiko about mating. But I saw the hurt in her eyes the last couple times I asked about her and Takahiro. I didn't have the heart to bring it up. It was times like these, that I missed momma the most. After returning home, I fixed myself a cup of hot cocoa and then retired to my room. I scrubbed my face, put on my pajamas. There was a chill in the air, so I placed another log on the fire, then snuggled up in a blanket on my chair. Taking a sip of my cocoa, I tried to relax. I let my mind wander and of course I thought of Reese. * Reese. * I whispered his name and flutters came to life in my belly. I thought of everything Kimiko had said and then our waitress Cassandra. If he was mine, why didn't he just come to me? Give me a chance. Why did he go for her? My wolf growled inwardly. Since High School, I've never really thought about having a boyfriend. I was consumed by thoughts of going to college and I couldn't afford the distraction. So my experience with males was close to nil. I cleared my mind and watched the fire as it licked up the side of the logs. ~Kare wa anata no tame no yoi shiai, kaiyo. (He's a good match for you, Kaiyo.)~ I sat up straight and looked around the room. I heard my mom's familiar laugh. * Mama? (Momma?) * I shook my head. My mother was dead, she can't be here. I had to be losing my mind, maybe I needed to have Julian check my head out. * ~Anata no kokorowohiraite kudasai. Watashi ga nani o iwanakereba naranai ka kiite kudasai. (Open your mind, child. Listen to what I have to say.)~ Tears sprung to my eyes as I heard her sweet voice again. *
    Hontoni anatadesu ka? (Is that really you?) * I looked around the room, hoping to see her, but I couldn't. But I sensed her, it was almost like she wrapped me in a warm familiar embrace. ~Hai, kodomo. Sōdesu. Rei kara anata o mamoru tame ni watashitachi ga anata ni oita jumon wa, yowame hajimete imasu. Anata ga dekiru koto ga wakaru to, sugu ni motto ōku no mono ga kurudeshou. Anata wa sore o seigyo suru koto o manabanakereba naranai. Sore o mushi shite shūryō shi, itsu shiyō suru ka o shiru. Sore wa anata ni totte hijō ni yūekidesu. (Yes, child. It is. The spell we had placed on you, to guard you from the spirits is beginning to weaken. Soon more will come through once they realize what you can do. You have to learn to control it Kaiyo. Know when to ignore it and shut it down and learn when to use it. It can be very beneficial to you.)~ Tears slid down my cheeks. *Anata ga koishī. Son'nani kawatta (I miss you so much. So much has changed.) ~Anata no imōto to anata no atarashī kyōdai no chikaku ni ite kudasai. Soshite, atarashī bōifurendo ni nintai-ryoku o motte kudasai. Watashi wa anata, kaiyo ga daisukidesu. (Stay close to your sister and your new brother. And be patient with the new boyfriend. I love you, Kaiyo.)~ I felt her leave and called out to her. * Īe, mama! Okonatte wa ikenai! (No momma! Don't go!) * My bathroom door flew open and I faced Kimiko. She looked at me with a concerned look. * "Kaiyo, who are you talking to?" * I looked around the room, hoping she was still near. * I...she's gone. * Kimiko walked into the room slowly and looked around. * "Who's gone, Kaiyo?" * She checked checked my windows. But didn't seem to sense that anyone else was in the room. * "Kaiyo?" * Tears continued to run down my face. * Mom, Kimiko, mom was here. * Kimiko took my hands in hers, looking me eyes, she sighed. * "I think it's time we had a little talk. Calm down, I'm going to go make us some tea. I'll explain everything." * She gave me a nod and turned to walk out of my room. *

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